What is "blog worthy"? What does that phrase mean to you?
I have heard people complain that blogs are too lovely. They create a false sense of perfection. They don't give the reader an opportunity to see the ugly, dirty, nitty-gritty side of day to day life. Bloggers will defend themselves and each other by reminding those critics that blogs are places specifically created to be beautiful. Sometimes a mom needs a beautiful place to record the loveliness otherwise she might be tempted to succumb to the nitty gritty. At the end of the day she might not be able to see the lovely for the laundry. To this person, "blog worthy" isn't a condition of pride, it's a coping mechanism.
I have heard people use the phrase "it just wasn't blog worthy" to describe something silly that happened or an idea that they had that they chose not to post on their blog. Mostly, it's been in reference to something they decided to share in a more temporary way. I would find it too exhausting to compartmentalize like that, but I tend to over think everything. I don't understand the desire to separate different aspects of my life but that doesn't mean that it serves no purpose. Perhaps it is another form of coping for the person who is too afraid to look at their whole self honestly. Maybe it helps to break the mirror into manageable pieces. For me, it would be too much of a temptation to not see the whole me and convince myself that I was something I'm not.
I have found myself without anything to say during different seasons of my time in the blogging world. That is a strange feeling because obviously, things are happening here at home and in the world. For example, we have been to the pool which required purchasing a new swim suit (and lots of therapy) and obviously I didn't blog about those things. Was it because I didn't consider them "blog worthy"? Maybe. I don't recall hearing that phrase in my head, but maybe the sentiment was there. I know that I shared our fun on Trinity Sunday, but I didn't post about the personal frustrations that led up to those moments. How can frustrations result in a cooking craft you ask? You'd have to be in my head.
After having stated on several occasions that I have no desire to reconnect with people from high school, I actually did reconnect with a lovely friend and found that she has grown and changed in similar ways and that now we find ourselves on common ground thinking about and pondering the important things in life and enjoying this place that age, maturity and faith have brought us. I could have blogged about that, but I didn't (except, I think I just did but you know what I mean). I still don't have a strong desire to attend any reunions or join the FB alumni page. This friend is a one in a million kind of girl. I don't expect there are many more out there like her.
Like the title says, I'm just thinking out loud. But these are all things I am pondering in my heart and trying to discern what they mean to me. What is "blog worthy"? Should the notion of what is and isn't "blog worthy" even be a factor in what I decide to post in this space I have carved out for me and my family? One thing I know for sure is that I want this space to be for me a true reflection of my family's life. It is going by so fast it seems and I want to hold on to the memories for better or for worse. I want it to also be a place that challenges me to do better and be better than I have in the past and to chronicle my successes and failures in those areas. I need to remember my blessings when I am tempted to only see the failures and remember the failures that will hold me accountable to that firm purpose of amendment required for absolution but always carefully walking that fine line between acknowledging my failures and obsessing about them. I think joining Ann's Gratitude Community is a good place to start. It's definitely an exercise that is blog worthy by anyone's definition.