Sunday, April 27, 2014

St. John Paul II

This is for those of us without a story...


I've been seeing everyone's pictures and reading their beautiful tributes to the man that we all know now as St. John Paul II but who will always fondly be remembered as just JPII.

I don't have a story. Or rather... I do. But it's just an ordinary one.

I went to Rome for a semester during my sophomore year in college. It was in the spring (Spring Romers rule!) and it was probably the most important part of my college career, after meeting my husband. In vague generalities, it showed me what another part of the world looked like and how different people lived. While we were there, the school arranged for us all to attend one of the Pope's regular Wednesday audiences. We showed up, sat in a huge auditorium and waited while the Holy Father made his way down the center aisle turning side to side as he went. Just about the time he passed the section we were sitting, he turned towards the opposite side of the aisle and I snapped this picture.
Check out all the early 90's tech on display!
This was the closest I ever got to him. And it wasn't even this close because I had a zoom lens. I never saw the twinkle in his eye. I never heard the encouragement of his voice stir my soul. I never felt his words or his touch or his blessing set my faith on fire. And yet, I cried like a baby the day he died. It never occurred to me until that moment that he was the only pope I'd ever known. The. Only. Pope.

It wasn't until he was gone that I realized what a quiet figure he had been. Not a tower of strength and support because I didn't pay attention like that. Not an spiritual icon to be loved and revered because I was pretty clueless. I can't credit a specific occasion with having affected my life profoundly... I guess it was just the slow and steady culmination of his teaching and example... of just being there for so long. He didn't knock me off my horse. There was no specific moment of conversion/reversion inspired directly by him. He had just always been there.

Until he wasn't.

What is that proverb? "You never know what you've got till it's gone." That was me. When I realized that my children would not know him, would never meet him, would probably not even remember him. I wept.

So, that's my story.
JPII, I do love you.



6 comments:

  1. You and me, both. I cried like I had lost a beloved grandfather the day he died…because I had. I credit him for my amazing marriage. I don't think if my husband and I had gone on the WYD '93 trip with our Life Teen group that we would have eventually gotten married. I named my 6th child (he was born 4 months after JPII death) after him . Experiencing ordinary stuff in an extraordinary way.

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  2. I do love this, so much. He was the only Pope I had ever known, and he was the Pope when I came into the church eleven years ago. I realized today, while watching the canonization, that there's a strong possibility that if he had never been who he was, and taught us all what he did about the theology of the body, I may not be Catholic, or have my children, or be married to my husband. He has touched so many lives in unimaginable ways! My youngest, who is 4, is named after him, and the Mass today made me cry like a baby.

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  3. 90's tech AND poofy 90's denim jackets! Gotta love it.

    I always enjoy reading about your "formative" years, Charlotte. You were a bit behind me, college-wise, but we have a lot in common in terms of trajectory.

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  4. I could have written the exact same thing. Even down to the other side of the row and pictures of the back of him. I did my semester in Austria in The fall though around the same time, mid 90's. Felt the same way when he died. Thanks for sharing

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  5. I could have written the exact same thing. Even down to the other side of the row and pictures of the back of him. I did my semester in Austria in The fall though around the same time, mid 90's. Felt the same way when he died. Thanks for sharing

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  6. I loved this. He was the only pope I ever knew too...so I also cried like a baby when he died. I could still cry about it. I loved him. You are blessed to get that picture though and be that close to him! I never saw him except in the papers or on TV.

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